She tragically lost her baby girl Lorena on July 8 – minutes after she was born.
And an emotional Lauren Gudger has now sadly admitted it feels like the newborn is ‘still there’ as her bump ‘hasn’t shifted’ and is still showing.
In an interview with new magazine just weeks after her tragic loss, the former TOWIE star, 35, said: ‘It shouldn’t happen. It breaks my heart that I won’t see him grow up.’
‘It breaks my heart that I won’t see her grow up’: Lauren Gudger tragically claims it feels like her late daughter Lorena is ‘still there’ because her bump ‘hasn’t shifted’ happening’.
Revealing that doctors spent eight minutes trying to revive her second child, Lauren revealed how she had originally planned a home birth.
It was when her midwife could no longer detect a heartbeat that the TV personality was rushed to hospital, two days after her water broke, contractions began.
Admitting that she was screaming outside the Queen’s Hospital in Romford, Essex, when her daughter’s head emerged, Lauren was later told that her umbilical cord had become knotted in two places and that she was in the womb by the baby’s neck. Wrapped around himself.
Lauren told the publication that she never imagined she would have to plan her child’s funeral and that her ‘disorganized’ body felt like it was ‘missing a newborn’.
Tragic: In a new interview just weeks after her tragic loss, the former TOWIE star, 35, said: ‘It shouldn’t happen. It breaks my heart that I won’t see him grow up
She continued: ‘I’m recovering. I’m still bleeding – I feel like I’ve passed out.
‘I am getting nowhere by blaming myself. I have to try and move on and accept it. First I need to understand it. She was absolutely perfect.’
After she was joined by boyfriend Charles Drury, 25, the pair spent 24 hours with Lorena where they took photos – which she now carries with her – and had casts made of her hands and feet.
Lauren has also claimed that she is not ready to consider trying for another child and would not opt for a natural birth again over opting for a C-section.
The influencer recently spoke. the sun of her experience, revealing that she ‘stayed up all night with her newborn, kissed and bathed him and sang to him.’
‘I stayed up all night with my baby and bathed and kissed him’: Lauren recently opened up about the tragic loss of her newborn daughter Lorena as she plans her own funeral (stock image)
Lauren is supported by Petals – a regional child loss charity that partners with The Queen’s Hospital.
He said: ‘The hospital and Petals were amazing. Lorena was with me the whole time. I bathed him and put him in a white baby grove that belonged to Laros. It was beautiful.
‘I held her and kissed her. I sang to him and we played songs. She looked just like she was sleeping.’
Lauren, who is also mum to 12-month-old Laros, partner Charles said family and friends came to the hospital to support him and it was a ‘very emotional evening’.
Sad news: Lauren paid tribute to her daughter Lorena who died on July 8 – her second daughter with boyfriend Charles Drury.
After being up all night, Lauren praised the charity who came the next day to get prints and casts of her hands and feet.
They also gave her a lock of Lorena’s hair and a special candle, and a photographer took photos that friends put in a locket for her.
Lauren had planned a natural water birth, which would be carried out at her Essex home under the supervision of her midwife Tamzin – who previously gave birth to the TV personality’s first child, Laros.
Her water broke on July 6 and early life was normal, with Lauren considered ‘low risk’ after giving birth to her first child without any issues.
Devastating: In a statement, Lauren said she would ‘never get over death’
More tests were performed the next day, during which the newborn’s heartbeat was detected, but when contractions began on the third day, there was no heartbeat, and Lauren was rushed to the hospital.
After two hours of birth, more than ten doctors fought desperately to save Lorena by applying chest compressions and administering adrenaline, but to no avail.
She added that after Lorena’s death, Charlies The family went to Lauren’s house and cleaned the birth pool.
Lauren is planning Lorena’s funeral – which will be private – and said she would like to dedicate her time to working with child loss charities to help other parents.
She said: ‘I take each day as it comes. I wouldn’t be here without Laros. She’s getting me every day.’
She has said that she wants to know why her daughter died because of her own sanity and has asked for an autopsy.
Lauren revealed the heartbreaking news that her newborn baby died earlier this month.
Taking to Instagram to share a photo of Lorena touching her hand, Lorraine wrote that she ‘can’t understand’ how her daughter died after an uneventful pregnancy and delivery, adding: She and partner Charles are broke. ‘By tragedy.
Lauren wrote: ‘Lorena [angel emoji] RIP 08.07.22 She was the most beautiful healthy baby I have ever seen exactly her sister @babylarose.x …
‘Words cannot describe what a mother is to lose your child that I carried perfectly all these months and gave birth to even have my angel taken away from me. [angel emoji].
‘There were no pregnancy or maternity complications and she was fine and healthy but I’m not going to go into detail right now just know there was nothing wrong with her or me she was perfect.
‘I can’t believe she looks so similar to the beautiful Laros twin.. I’m broken. [heartbreak emoji].’
Lauren admitted she will ‘never get over’ the tragic loss of her daughter and pleaded for time and space to grieve while focusing on her eldest child.
She continued: ‘I’m back home from hospital. Charlie and I spent a lot of time with our baby Lorena and I still haven’t said goodbye [heartbreak emojis].
‘Please can I ask the photographers to respect our privacy for now as we have a lot of grieving and funeral planning to do so I just need this time and my baby girl Laros is my rock to see me through this. Going through or I won’t. to stay alive…
Parents: Lauren and Charles are parents to Lauren’s first daughter Lars, with Charles saying their newborn looks just like her big sister (pictured with her firstborn).
‘I will never get over it but I will learn how to live everyday with Lorena in my heart she will always be with me and I will be with her again one day…
‘My [angel emoji] Lorena I love you so much. [heartbreak emoji](sic).’
Her partner Charles Drury soon paid tribute to her late newborn daughter.
Charles, who shares 11-month-old daughter Lars with Lauren, later wrote on his Instagram: ‘Your little heart will forever beat inside of me.’
Charles wrote: ‘Lorena Drury – 8/7/22.
‘Our beautiful baby girl so perfect in every way, 8/7/22 will always be your day. Your little heart will forever beat inside me, I will love you till the end.
‘You remind me of my big sister, you look like younger twins, Laros will always know how beautiful and strong you were.
‘I promise you that I will always look after your mother and sister, just look over us all and keep me strong, show me signs that you are in heaven where you belong. I’m sorry it had to happen but I know we’ll be together again someday.’
‘This isn’t something I thought I’d ever have to write but I’m so proud to be your dad, I’ll see you soon baby but for now, sleep tight.’
If you have been affected by anything in this article, please contact the UK Child Burial Line on 0800 02 888 40 or The Lullaby Trust on 0808 8026868.
Touching: Lauren revealed that she made prints of her daughter’s hands and feet and gave them this beautiful candle.